A battle

“Don’t do that!” “Just do it!” No! Yes!Do it! Don’t!

What do you think when you hear someone arguing all by his/her self?

You probably think that he’s/she’s crazy and you laugh. I think it’s ridiculous so I laugh and then I start to get serious because I realize that it’s not really a ridiculous thing to do. At first it seems unnoticeable because all that I can think about is how insanity can affect someone’s life. But when I try to dig deeper I realize that it’s not really the insanity that is affecting someone’s life.

It is actually the battle inside the mind.

It’s funny because when I think about battle I think about swords, armors, armies, two different kingdoms fighting,tanks,firearms and it’s bloody. I never thought of having a battle inside someone’s mind not until my mind has become a battlefield where logic and emotions are fighting for one important thing – VICTORY. It’s not bloody, thank GOD, but it’s a little bit damaging. I don’t see any part of my body that is separated but I know that something inside me is badly wounded.

It’s not easy when you experience that kind of battle in you. It’s much better than to be in a typical battle but do you know what’s the good thing about having a battle in the actual battlefield?

- The good thing about it is that you know who’s going to win – the last man standing.

But the battle inside your mind is so tricky. You are not sure which of the two – logic and emotions- will raise the white flag and accept defeat.

Life and a roller coaster ride

Hands as cold as ice, hearts beating so fast, shaking like having a Parkinson’s disease, tears that seem unstoppable, saying unlimited bad words, screaming out loud- these are just some of the reactions that people have in a roller coaster ride. Everything seems scary, so scary to the extent that some will think about jumping ignoring the fact that if they will do it they will die.

Life is like a roller coaster ride. There are so many ups and downs. There are so many twists and turns. Mixed feelings arise. It seems like a torture and sometimes we tend to give up. But as we overcome the hardships and pressures that make us crazy we get the satisfaction that we need. IT’S SCARY BUT WE HAVE MADE IT!

And when we try to reminisce those moments that we consider as  “torture” we can smile, laugh about it and say “THAT’S ONE HELL OF A TORTURE BUT I HAD FUN!”

A Friend

There are so many definitions about friends. When you Google you will find thousands or even millions of sites about it.  Some have their own ideas about friends. They define it in a way that they understand.

A friend is someone who is always there to laugh with you and comfort you when you’re down. A friend is someone who will back you up in times of trouble. A friend is someone who knows your birthday or even the name of your dead cat and knows how it died. THAT WOULD BE THE IDEAL DEFINITION OF A FRIEND.

Someone who is unable to greet a friend on her birthday because she forgot about it, someone who can’t contact a friend because she only knows her cellphone number,someone who doesn’t know how to properly comfort a friend who is crying, someone who has a best friend but can’t remember her best friend’s favorite color or favorite cartoon character- now, that is ABSOLUTELY NOT an ideal kind of a friend.

I’m afraid to say but I’m that someone. I’m not the typical kind of a friend that everyone wishes to have. I don’t know everything about my friends.

I’m not the ideal one but I can go to your boarding house before going to school when you’re sick just to give you something to eat. I can go to any place at night to find balloons because you need it even if I’m not sure where to find it. I can’t say a single word but I can lend you my handkerchief when you’re crying. I can make you laugh for being stupid and nonsense.

I may not know the basic information about my friends but I know one thing for sure. I put them, all of them, where they belong. I PUT THEM IN MY HEART.

Well, for me, that is a friend. What is a friend for you?

a picture

I know that this is edited in a very simple way. Just gathered all the pictures and made them as one. But it is not about the simplicity of this piece of artwork that matters to me. Other people might look at it as ordinary, simple and plain. But for me, I considered this as valuable as mona lisa for da vinci. It is not just about the picture and how I look at it  but how I look backwards reminiscing the memories that we have shared while looking at it.

On jan. 23,2010 in G-mall,after how many months of not seeing each other, after some of us graduated in college and after we took on different paths, finally we’ve met.

Salamat mga bai’s!hehehe

Spread your wings!

This is my other sister Ate jam.

pic.

I wanted to edit again so  I looked for pictures in our computer and I found this.  Actually, this is my younger sister jill who’s in the pic.

Mary..

This is my friend Mary.  Tomorrow is her birthday and I can’t celebrate with her so I made this picture for her instead. I’m sorry Mer.

Happy Birthday in advance! Hope you’ll enjoy your party!hehehe

pic again..

These are my high school friends. I haven’t seen them for years until we had our reunion.

DOST-04 reunion

We had our high school reunion last saturday, 05-23-09. I attended for the first time. I haven’t seen them for about five years already. Nothing much changed.  Well, except for the physical appearance. Some became mature and some remain the same.lol! I planned not to go home but I changed my mind. Though some stayed.

sketch in GIMP